Er is niet veel te zien. Ik ben nog steeds bezig met mijn doodles. Ben wel vergeten om er dagelijks een foto van te maken en hier te updaten.
Het stapeltje papier wat er boven ligt zijn de rouwkaart en lieve woorden die ik ontvangen heb bij het overlijden en begraven van mijn moeder. Daar ga ik een mooi boekje van maken. Dat heb ik bij mijn vader ook gedaan en daar ben ik heel blij mee.
Het gaf een stukje troost en ik ben blij dat ik alle gedachten van mezelf en van anderen bij elkaar heb.
Het is nu 1,5 week geleden dat ze overleed na ruim 3 maanden echt heel erg ziek te zijn geweest. Mijn mama die altijd zo dapper doorging, na elke tegenslag en alle ziektes die ze al had. Mijn mama die de laatste week wilde sterven en tegelijk niet weg wilde. Ze wilde de pijn niet meer, maar ze wilde ons ook nog niet achterlaten. Mijn mama, de grote bemoeial, die ons altijd wel vertelde hoe ze het wilde hebben, kon de laatste week niet meer praten en wij begrepen haar gebaren niet. Lieve mama, ik zal je zo missen. Al je goede eigenschappen, maar vooral onze ruzies. Want daar waren we goed in, maar altijd kwamen we bij elkaar terug, want zonder elkaar konden we niet. En nu moet ik wel zonder jou. En ook dat gaat lukken want jij en papa zitten voor altijd in mijn herinnering.
En nu probeer ik het gewone leven weer op te pakken. Met daarbij het besef dat het nooit meer gewoon gaat worden. Want mijn ouders maken deel uit van het gewone en zij zijn er niet meer. Het gewone leven zal anders worden, geen twijfel over mogelijk. Maar ik maak wel weer plannen en probeer weer een routine te vinden.
Deze blog en alle lieve blogmensen hebben me daar al vaak bij geholpen. En bloggen is onderdeel van het normale. Daarom toch een post, ook al ligt er nog niet veel op mijn tafel.
Hi Angenitat I am so sorry for your loss. We lost our Father last year and we know how you are feeling. Keep making beautiful doodles when you need to take your mind off your sadness. I am sending you a big hug. Thinking of you. Helen X 107
BeantwoordenVerwijderenI'm so sorry about your mum. I hope your art helps. It is certainly incredibly beautiful and reminds me to work hard at my own.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenBest wishes, rachel #19
So sorry for your loss, it is a very sad time for you but your Mum is not in pain now so that must be a comfort for you. Your work is beautiful and hopefully making it will remind you of the good times you had with your Mum. Big hugs, Anne x #43
BeantwoordenVerwijderenI too am very sad to hear about your mum - sending you hugs. Your artwork is beautiful. Thanks for the opportunity of having a peep at your workspace - trying to make a few visits early this week! Hazel, WOYWW #87 x
BeantwoordenVerwijderenSo sorry to hear of your loss. At the moment you cannot believe this but time will heal the pain you are feeling at the moment. Treasure the memories you have, nobody can ever take those away from you.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenThinking of you - Neet #21
Hugs sweetie. They say time heals but really it is God who heals - God Bless BJ#47
BeantwoordenVerwijderenSending a huge crafty gluey glittery hug! You will find a new normal in time...
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So sorry for your loss. Sending hugs xx
BeantwoordenVerwijderenHugs from another WOYWW friend.x Jo #84
BeantwoordenVerwijderenOh sweetie. I can only imagine how you are feeling and just how raw your grief is at the moment. I am, like others above, sure that you will soon feel like creating more of you beautiful art and a memory book is a wonderful way to start. Much love and hugs #56
BeantwoordenVerwijderenYour artwork is really lovely and I'm sure it will help to carry you through a very difficult time. Big hugs from a WOYWW friend.
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Oh Dear, I am so sorry to hear about your Mum, I to have lost my mum 5 years ago now, but it still hurts, I miss her everyday and Yes I try and remember all the good things, the quirky things and just her in everything she was. It is still all in my heart as will yours be. Lovely art you create, delve into it, it really does help. Cyber hugs to you and many prayers will be said.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenHugs Eliza www.queenartoypia.blogspot.com.au
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Firstly, I am so sorry that you have lost your mum after such a short illness. My mother-in-law died in December only 2 months after being diagnosed with cancer. It was a relief that she didn't suffer too long. I hope your mum's departure was peaceful. Secondly - what wonderful doodles. Absolutely beautiful. Ali x #61
BeantwoordenVerwijderenso sorry for your loss, your doodles are beautiful, being creative is very healing for the soul,
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So sorry that you lost your mom, I hope you can find some comfort in your beautiful art work. Barb #31
BeantwoordenVerwijderenOh my dear, I pray for peace that surpasses understanding during this difficult time. I too believe your art can be a positive outlet #99
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BeantwoordenVerwijderenah Angenita, im so sorry for your loss, its a horrible shock, even if you know it's going to happen. Bless you, life will be changed indeed, and I send you hugs and strength to help you along. You are not alone, and I too am sire that your art will be a great help to you, its so utterly absorbing, gives you time to work things out in your head.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenSorry to hear about your mum. Sending you (((hugs))).
BeantwoordenVerwijderenThank you for sharing your beautiful artwork.
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Very sorry to hear you lost your Mum - must be a very sad time for you. Hope that ordinary life will come a little easier as the weeks slip by. Wishing you well Ali #39
BeantwoordenVerwijderenDear Angenita, I am so sorry for the loss of your Mom. The way you write about her is so poignant -- I can feel the pain that you are in. I hope that your drawing will bring you comfort or at least a way to be distracted from your sadness. I pray that God will hold you in the palm of His hand and bring you some peace. Laura
BeantwoordenVerwijderenMy dear Angenita, I am so sorry to hear this sad news...I can only pray that your art will help you through this sad time.. take care.. hugs May x x x#62
BeantwoordenVerwijderenSo sorry for your loss, we lost mum and a brother this year. Time does heal and memories last forever.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenYour doodlings are brilliant, art for the heart.
(Lyn) Woyww#20
Sorry to hear about your loss. Sending you lots of (((hugs)))
BeantwoordenVerwijderenYour artwork is so lovely. Sandy :)
We are here for you. Loosing a Mum is the hardest thing ....I remember hearing my mums voice for months after she passed and I felt she was still close. Getting back to normal is the best advice and blogging does help.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenLove your art work. xx#9
Hi Angenita - bless you for joining in this week (and with such lovely "doodles" too! I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your Mum, I can't imagine losing mine, although my Dad died nearly 5 years ago. Time does heal, but moments will come back and with it the pain, though it lessens with time.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenSending you hugs and warm thoughts.
Morti #58
Sending hugs on the loss of your Mom...I lost my Dad 2 years ago and still grieve for him...It is a long journey to be able to deal with the loss...and your journey is for two...
BeantwoordenVerwijderenYour drawings are so lovely.
Hi there Angenita - ah your post is so very touching have been at that place too, of loss and grief, but the LORD was my comfort and help when I lost my mum some years back now, and still is. It was hard as I had cared for her for so many years - praying you will know the comforting touch of the Lord at such a times as this - He understands in a way in which no one else does...
BeantwoordenVerwijderenSending hugs and every blessing - happy WOYWW! Shaz in Oz.x #25
your post brought tears to my eyes. so sorry to hear about your loss and pray that you will find comfort and consolation. your drawing is beautiful and i love the colors you used.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenhugs and blessings, #15 peggy aplSEEDS
i mean the colors you used
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